Lately, I've been in such a funk. A blogging funk (if you couldn't tell), a life funk...just a big, fat 'ol funk. (Let's see how many times can I say the word 'funk' in two sentences. ;) )
I've been thinking long and hard lately about closing the doors on LWTB (Ha, I've never used an acronym for my blog before. It looks so weird.) Anyways...
I just don't know what to do. I feel like I have nothing to write about anymore. Other than posts about
Isabella, I don't have much else for some reason....hence, my funk.
I read a lot of blogs out there in a blogland, and I love reading each and every one of them. But lately, I find myself thinking that my writing sucks. And, if I don't want to read/write my own blog, why would anyone else? I wish I was the type of writer that really knew how to engage an audience. From the very first sentence, to everything in between...some writers/bloggers just really suck you in. And, I love that. But, I'm not like that. And, no matter how hard to try, I don't think I'll ever be a good writer like that.
And, this brings me to my life funk.
My entire life, I've never felt like I was really 'good' at anything. I know so many people who have a passion for many things, or at least one thing...photography, writing, art, crafts, their job, something. I don't have one thing that's just mine (Other than being a mom, of course, which is hands down the greatest thing I've ever done in my life. Truly.) I feel like I've tried to dabble in so many different things (photography, sewing, crocheting), but I just can't seem to get the hang of it and give up. I know, my own fault, right? But, sometimes it just really makes me feel down about myself. Silly, I know.
Another funk I've been in lately is the friend funk. I don't have a best friend. I never really have. I have 2 really good friends that I've known for years, and I would call them MY best friend, but, they wouldn't call me THEIR best friend, because they already have someone else their closer to. Am I making sense?? And, it doesn't help that one of them lives in San Diego. And, my sister lives in San Francisco. So, those friends that you call up and tell everything to, or drop everything for and run to their side when you just need someone to vent/cry/laugh/drink with? Mine are 3,000 miles away. I hate that. (Side note: I'm not saying any of this or putting this out there as a 'woe is me....pity me' type of thing. It's just the honest truth and how I've been feeling a lot lately, and I needed to get it out. That is all.)
So, I don't really know what I'm looking for here. I just wanted to get it all out, and see if that would help in getting myself out of this funk. Who knows. We'll see, I guess. I want to be able to blog every day. Heck, I'd love to do it just once or twice a week even! But, after working all day, playing with Isabella as much as possible, and then eating dinner, washing the dishes/bottles, laundry, I don't have much in me by the time I sit down at 9/10pm at night. I'm pooped! But, such is life, right? (Honestly, I give all you mom bloggers out there SO much credit. I don't know how you do it.) I just really need to figure things out and get some more 'me' time in each day. Hopefully that will help!
Well, if you got this far without closing your browser...thank you. Seriously. If felt good to get that off my chest. :-)
7 comments:
Aw don't feel bad I feel the EXACT same way alot...
It's my birthday but all last weekend and this weekend I've spent it basically by myself.
My best friends are all in San Francisco. I had a falling out with my old best friend (same scenario) I'd call her my BF but I think she doesn't think the same. Thus I've cut her out of my life.
I don't know what to do it makes me really sad so I turn to sewing..
I think you should def. still blog and you should most def. blog about your precious daughter she's so cute and I love all your FB pics of her.
This is really long but I still have more.
I totally agree with the fact that some bloggers suck you right in... I have no ability to do so and think that exact same thing so don't stress.
If anything I like the fact that I can look back at my blog and remember what I did on a certain weekend because of my weekend recaps etc. I think you should do the same when the time strikes you with your daughter and family!
xo
jenn
((hugs)) I really like your blog! I hope you continue to write.
And I feel you on the friend thing. I live far from all my friends and it really blows...especially now that I'm a mom. Some days I would kill to have a friend close by. Hang in there!!!
Awww hun I'm so sorry you've been in a funk! But don't close down your LWTB blog! Look at how many followers you have! You must have built up a following for great posts! I only have 27 followers and that gets me down sometimes, but I blog for me and the followers are a great bonus ;0)
I am in the "friend funk" too as we moved from CT to FL and I feel like I'll never have great friends down here like I did back home. It sucks, because we chose to move here and love it here beyond words, but we miss our friends and family dearly. We've met some great people here, but none of them compare to what we had back at home. So I completely relate to loved ones being far away. Chin up! And I can't wait for your next post even if it's just a general vent. That's what blogging is for.
1. I'm sorry you are in a funk.
2. DO NOT CLOSE DOWN YOUR BLOG.
3. You ARE engaging.
4. We all go through these roller coasters of "life funks" as well.... believe me, you don't have to be amazing in all these "crafts, photography" and so forth.. i'm not.. and that's okay. We are who we are. And I love who you are!
5. I totally get the FRIEND FUNK. It big time SUCKS and I completely agree.... that's why I can't (but can) wait until kids go to school and we meet all the "School parents" and "sports parents" and you know.. "make friends." haha...
xoxo! keep your head up mama :)
First - don't close down the blog. I don't even mean that selfishly. I mean it because without your blog? We would have never met. And all your other internet buddies too.
Finding time is hard. And then you have it? What do you do now? Write? Write about what? That's what you decide. I can sit here and name a hundred ideas for you, but then it would be Aly writing your blog, not you! This blog is about you and who knows ... maybe some day, Bella will read this!
I'm in a current funk as well. Various reasons. If writing about the funk helps you get out of the funk, then write about it!
Just know that this is only a small bump in the road! I enjoy you, your blog and reading all about mommyhood!
Love you!!!
I'm definitely a little relieved to hear this.. I feel the exact same way! I feel like I hate everything I write, and even when I DO have something to share (rarely nowadays) I feel like it's a waste of my time write about because no one is reading it anyway... pouty, huh? Lol
I don't know. I hope I get out of my funk soon... I've also been debating putting the kibosh on the blog altogether, but I know once I do that, I'll want to start writing again lol.
Hope you find your way out of the funk too!
I'm right there with you, girlie. I can craft all day long, but those girls who make tons of money selling things in their Etsy shop? Not me. I don't have the exciting life with the hubby & kiddo to talk about on the daily, and my closest girl friend, right now, is someone I met in the blog-o-sphere and have never met in real life! I understand "the funk", too. Something about being not-quite-divorced & unable to move on with my current boyfriend will do that to you. I can dream about my future family & my future babies all day long, but not being able to do anything to get there just plain sucks sometimes. You are NOT the only one suffering from "the funk"! So if you ever feel like venting/whining (as I tend do most of the time), I'm here for you, girlie!
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